My back is hurting me these few days..
Oh god..
I feel so fucking pathetic..
Its damn pathetic.. To have so many people concern about you, asking you to go fucking see a doctor..
I know its good have people concern for you.. But I don't like it..
I don't know why.. I know having people concern you is good, but I seriously feel that is rather of more pity than of concerning for me..
Hey, I don't need any pities please..
Don't give me a sympathetic look.. Sympathy me.. Pity me..
No, I don't want to have that.
I rather be get fucked up with the scoldings or whatever.
Please don't show me any concerns that much, I can't take it..
I know I'm fucked up, I ain't a person actually to be sympathize for..
Just jolly well get on with my life and be a passerby for everything..
My backis hurting.. I just wan a space for me to just say out.. Complain about.. Don't bother saying things to me go see a doctor.. I don't believe in their bullshits.. First time went to the hospital give me a fucking x ray and few medicines.. One is to apply and let the bruise go off.. The other one is sticker like thingy more like for muscle ache..
But does it cure my back? The bone is already cracked by a little bit.
How is it gonna heal? Its like you breka a wooden pencil, and how you gonna fix it back in a neat and nice way.. Don't tell my use tape.. After a while the tape will fall off its still the same.. The pencil is in 2 pieces no more in 1 piece.. Similarly you can't fixed a cracked bone.. Operation? Please. Its gonna cost a fucking bomb for my parents..

Sorry, stop pitying me is what I can only say..
I know some will say its not pitying you its care for you..
I know.. I know.. But somehow I just get this pitying feeling..
I hate it.. Its hard to understand me anyway.. I don't even understand myself..
How am I gonna understand this world in time..
I just wanna die, the pain is really.. Oh god.. Zz...

- No Promises - Shayne Ward -
Tonight will be the night that I will fall for you over again.

Well today went out to krislan again..
God.. Third time I went to krislan..
Hah.. Actually I didn't wanna go out today, but Val and Lun said of wanna come down to find me then I just told them I go over to find them..
Heys, its not really good to have people finding you from north and east to west..
I don't good about it =/
But anyway saw JH, YK, Lun at krislan then went over to the Mac to find the rest and buy drinks.. Saw Lyn, Keith, XT, Kel, and one more guy I don't really know who issit... But anyway.. After that I went back to Krislan to play for awhile.. Then Lyn left I take over the comp...
-Edited-

Left to Suntec from Krislan around 7+ reach there around 8+.. Imagine someone haven't eaten any single thing from 11+ to 8+ I'm so gonna be a god.. Wow..
Zzz... Ahh.. Reach home around 12.30+
Wowow.. Damn boring.

- Edited for my reasons, and don't wanna show too much of my feelings in here anymore.. Own reasons again. STFU if you wanna say anything about it. I'm tired. -

My right shoulder blade is in pain whenever against a wall or something..
Argh, can't the fucking lectures note be lighter, and the adapter too.. Zz..
Its so bloody darn heavy.. I wanna get piercing, people say I emo then wan pierce.. Zzzz... Its in my wishlist ! I yearn for it.. Zzzz...


- Fucking fucked up life, with such fucking fucked problems. -
Tonight will be the night that I will fall for you over again.

What is this.. I'm fucking speechless.
You're attached, yet I getting this feeling.
Stop this madness around me please.

zzzzzzzzzzzzz
Fuck this world.
Fuck this endless meanings..
Fuck this son of fucking goddamned bitch jealousy.
How I wish I never knew the both of you.
My life is fucking fucked up.
How I wish I can just break down, and forget these sad moments..


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I wanna love you but end up you're loving another one.
I hate this repetition.
Stop toying with me, fuck love.
I don't wanna be happy.
Happy for what fuck?
Trying to make me say that the grape is sour cause I couldn't get to eat it?
Fuck this life.
Fuck this everything.
Fuck this mother fucking pain
Fuck this son of a bitch GAME!.

I AIN'T A TOY FOR FUCK SAKE.
WHAT IS FATE. WHAT IS FAITH. WHAT IS LOVE.
ALL ARE JUST LIES.
DON'T BOTHER TO FUCKING EXPLAIN TO ME.

- I'm seriously sicked and tired of this life. -
Tonight will be the night that I will fall for you over again.

Oh yeah ~
Today was relaxing in school =D
Went for CATS module then after go for my sports and wellness program..
Learn about the gym machines..
Then next week can start using the machines at own will i guess..

Woohoo, anyway after school my father fetch me from school, then later fetch mother we went to queensway shopping centre to look for shoes.
In the end while looking for shoes I'm glancing more on clothes than shoes..
Preeetttyyyyy clothes are at there..
Cool looking, nice looking.. Damn nice..
anyway then go on to eat I see my parents eat 'cause in school already eaten with my CATS classmates..
Oh well.. At least I don't have to eat the not really very nice food at the hawker centre ;x
But I ate the paper chicken.. Eh how you say it in chinese? I don't know.. All I know is in a mini paper bag.. Hoho its nice to eat =D, but at the same super oily -.-
Anyway after eating and buy food for my brother who was at home.. I saw one shop selling striped shirts, then I go choose purple striped shirt long sleeve de.. 18 bucks lidat not very expensive bah?
But still okay lah, can wear go for classes, material abit thick but I like cause my classes are all air-conditioned and is damn cold.. Oh yeah, I tomorrow have to bring jacket already, uber cold in the classrooms.. ><


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21st April

blah.. I wanna update it yesterday then in the end my brother off the damn modem.. Can't be bothered to tap net also..
Ahhh now I die also must bring jacket..
Its really damn cold during lessons.. Almost freeze to death during lectures..
Awww, my class no good looking guys.. but 1A04 got 2 quite good looking.. But heck I don't know whats their name.. Anyway.. LOL, relax I ain't interested in them..
'Cause I still miss somebody, but this person for sure can see is ain't interested in me also.. Kinda sicked of it eh.. Like people yet don't like but like another girl.. Not the first time anyway.. Oh well.. Gotta live with it and pretend that nothing of such thing ever happened...
Oh well ~ Can't ponder much, there are alot of things for me to do.. But I'm lazy to do thats all LOL. I received a email by maple ahyi.. Its on a hair cut service from japan.. Anybody interested and don't mind porn LOL you can ask from me 'cause I'm asking from my ahyi to send me so that I can send to Keith, since he like gory, violence, bloody scenes.. Then I shall send him =/

Ahh I go try do some research if not I don't know wtf to do for my project zz..
Tomorrow have to stay back and do.. OH MY GOD T_T


- I'll love you no matter what happens, <3 -
Tonight will be the night that I will fall for you over again.

For some reasons..
These days I'm getting pissed off easily..
I don't know why I'm being so pissed off by them..
It seems that friends are hard to be as close as before..
What can I do about it?
Telling me not to worry, but can't help it.
Telling me not to be so saddist, but can't help it with so many things happening around you..
Am I'm falling for you?
But I don't wish to, I know nothing is gonna be right..
It seems that I'm really falling into this hole deeper.
Yet I can't find a way out..
What is this.. Haiz =.=

Boring..
This gonna sucks =/
Aww.. My homework not done, later gonna do it..
Any assignments for you people le?
I had to team up with a foreigner to do it T.T
'Cause got 9 local and 11 foreign students.. Fuck..
T_T



- I've fallen for you, wtf . -
Tonight will be the night that I will fall for you over again.

Woooahhhhh ~~~~~~~~~~~
Yes, the first week has finally passed..
Fucking bag with heavy laptop is killing my back and my shoulder especially..
The laptop is killing my arms..
My god, first time go school need to bring so heavy items can..
Puh-lease ~ Spare me from these heaviness..

Wooo okay, talk about life in poly..
Kinda fun kinda sucky..
Fun is that I know my classmates lols. Yay, no more such loneliness I hope..
*erhem* =/
Sucky is that my bloody bag is heavy..
Then, my lessons always end at 4 to 5pm.. DAILY..
Woosh ~~
How are you guys going on~~~
Wanna thank you people for wishing me that day =D
Weets =D Angie, how you want me forget you leh ?
Next block only.. Sometimes you can see me from your window..
OMG~ SCARY =x
LOL kiddin =x
Whahahaha ~~~

Woooooooots ~
Blogged =D

I never join any CCA then all keep ask me what CCA I joined.. Zzzz
I wanna be a slacker. So shut up with the CCA thing..
Makes me more tired at the end of the day only... Bloody holy fucky. ~




- Wishing upon a wishing star, wishing that you'll be here right by my side. -
Tonight will be the night that I will fall for you over again.

I'm so bloody bored..
I'm in school right now rottin my ass off..
You know why ?
Cause my fucking lectures actually is 2 hour but yet 45mins+
Our class ended.. Song bo? But I buay song =.=
Cause I don't know anyone yet.. Yet I'm rotting alone =/
So fucking sad..
Sad.. Sad.. Soon I'm gonna be a saddist.. Fuck..
HOW AM I GONNA SPEND MY DAYS IN POLY ?!
Oh well.. Gotta wait for time to pass by to let me know them then =/
Fucking emo ._.
I'm under block 6 rotting my ass off..
Woohoo...
Anyway just now went to find shunzhen for awhile..
Then after that my friend came over hoho.. His name is Wilson [ IGN : GoldFishBoy ]
Hah.. Damn tall can... zzz
ZZZ Talk to him must raise my head....
RARR ~ I feel so short.. OMG ~

I'm bored until update blog..
Wa lan eh...
OMG LAAAAAAAA
=.=
Save me from this boredom.. T_T
Tonight will be the night that I will fall for you over again.

Happy birthday to me =D
whatever .

12th April re-helmed at 3.26am by my maple bf, KyoToshiru who logged in my accont and help me get =D
Thanks baby for the birthday present lol. x3

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12th April
Went out with FissioN guildmates lol..
They went to study so its okay with me if its in the library..
But heck, they went awhile after that go off to macdonalds to study..
Oh my god la.. No books to read can.. I borrowed the books i cannot concentrate on reading la.. They damn noisy..
Then went on to rot till around 6pm+ we went off to eat at Bugis Junction.. =/
Later that we eat till 8.30 with some group.. Cause too packed needa separate =/
Then 8.30 we went to meet the others..
Then went to a group photo.. Bloody damn dark la that photo zz..
Use my phone somemore.. Cause my phone's camera is the best.. Wow..
Wtf -.-..

I shall post the picture..


Theres alot people just know la..
I will name them =D
by Top left to right bottom.. In Sequence.. Some name in shortform.. Don't know that their full name la..
Drew [ tOOts ], YK [ DarkDrack ]
Boon [ DSinCross ], Kel [ DaRkHeRo ], WS [ zWs89z, miracleWEN ], JinHan [ minugirl ]
JY [ XiiaoNuts ], Keith [ KCxAXE ]
Xiao Ting [ angelicCandy ], JT [ I don't know ign =.= ], WaiTung [ xTuNgTuNg93x ], Xiang [ copyandpaste ], valerie [ cherrieval ], Lun [ mon2 ], and me =D.



We went to slack at somewhere after that at around 10.30 we all left home =/
I'm alone on the way home again.. Aww.. Gotta get used to it anyway =/

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13th April
Went out at 4pm+.. Met Lyon then went to take bus to Cineleisure to play pool with kenneth and lam..
yeah ~
we played a few rounds then in the midst of it I saw MUFFY !
He was there playing pool also lol, I didn't saw him of cause but he sms-ed me to confirm it was me.. Haha so coincident to meet him there.. His pool table was just beside ours only..
LOLS.. It was his birthday on 13th april =D

Then later on around 7+ we played our last game then we went to eat at Fish & Co.
Bloody damn expensive can.. zz..
Hello.. Zz.. We 4 ate till 121 dollars lor =.=
Roughly each person is 25 dollars..
God..
I can eat 3 times of student meals pizza set =x
LOL.. Then after that we went to PS play awhile then after go PCBunk to see see..
Damn nobody lor.. Then off we went home after that lols..
Kinda fun =D

At home I went online to maple once it reached 12mn
Woah ~ My guildmates all wished me happy birthday because boon say in guild =.=
But still happy leh ~ so many people wished me..
Some early wished me..
Some via sms..
Not gonna say who if tio it gonna seems like I'm not happy with them
But its okay I'm happy now..
But I'm still wondering do I get to have presents this year =/
Later on evening I'm going down to PCBunk again to meet up some people..
Hoho.. I gonna love these days.. So much companion..
Yeah, I may think pessimist but I'm happy to have friends around me..
Especially Keith =/
He said me la but I know he cares for me all thanks to him I almost cry when he say me -.-.. Okay I dropped a few tears.. Whatever..
Bloody hell.. =/

Okay end of story. Later shall blog about my outing in the evening..
Next to my quiz.. Fuck I got tagged by XinLei..
KUKU XINLEI LOLS =X

Quiz time.. -.-


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Quiz.
1. At what age do you wish to marry?
- What age? Hmm, time will tell me when he pass by me and stops to tell me when I will tell you =D

2. What I want the most now?
- Presents x_x, Find out William, Find more money to satisfy my wishlist..

3. Who is the person you trust most?
- Keith maybe? He's the one I recently confided to =/

4. Do you think u have enough confident?
- It gotta depends on I'm doing, but not on presentations of course =/

5. If you can have 1 dream to come true, what would it be?
- I don't really know, but I'll go find it out =]

6. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain?
- Not really, only encounter it with the sun.. No sun no rainbow after rain.. Duh. Common sense please..

7. What are you afraid to lose the most now?
- My family, Friends.. WHO DOESN'T DAMN IT ?

8. Do you believe in eternity love?
- If there is.. Then there won't failed marriages..

9. If you meet someone that you love, would you confess to him/her?
- Unless I got confident that I'll be with that person, well maybe yeah =/.
If not I will just shut up and tell my bed about it when I sleep..

10. List out 3 good points of the person who tagged you.
- Talkative.. Its good to be talkative.. Don't say me I tell you -.-..
Chatty
Able to talk to others.. ZZZ Can't think leh -.-

11. What are the requirements that you wish from your the other half?
- Faithful, Love me for who I am, Best of course be taller than me -.-, Be with me when I needed him, Don't kp me about my temper..

12. Which type of person do you hate the most?
- Fucking ass that suddenly bitched you =D

13. Do you cherish every single of your friendship?
- Who don't? Unless its a bloody bitch or bastard that suddenly turn around and bitched at you =D

14. Do you believe in God?
- No, Since I don't live in history I don't know who the hell he is. And I'm a buddhist, so shut the fuck up =]

15. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
- My Life duh.

16. Do you find it a need for you to have a boyfriend /girlfriend?
- Its a need and a wants. But its boils down to fate again =/

17. At this point of time, would you rather stay in your comfort zone or try something new?
- Comfort zone but something new that not gonna cost me my life or friends or family..

18. What kind of friend you hope to be in your friends eyes?
- Emo Kiddo. ROFL KIDDIN. Happy, easy going =/

19. If you have a chance. Which part of your character you would like to change?
- Don't every night emo can le, if not I'm gonna get it from Keith again.. -.-

20. What makes you different?
- Top to bottom I'm different from everyone. Even if you create a clone out of me, I make sure I kill the other one and Kill the person who cloned me .

Instructions:Remove 1 question from below, and add in your personal question, make it a total of 20 questions, then tag 8 people in your list, list them out at the end of this post. Notify them in their chat box that he/she has been tagged. Whoever does the tag will have blessings from all.

[ Fuck what is this? I don't get so I'll skipped it. ]

How the hell I know who to tag?
Al done it I tag who?
Tag you la ghost la..
Fuck you =D


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End of blogging.. Fucking long post =D
Cya Gonna update soon =D
When I'm free . Heh.

- I wanna love you boy, yet this isn't happening. Loveless Life, Living happily with it. -
Tonight will be the night that I will fall for you over again.