Whats with today damn it..
Online play game then suddenly all start to shoot each other..
Then mini internal conflicts everywhere..
What the fuck happen to you guys, always so chatty and close with each other.. Hardly any backstabs.. Now?
Backstabbing here and there, some trying to cease the fire but yet it gotten worst..
Oh fuck this..

Tomorrow is 8th May, its Keith and Leonard court case..
Yes, fuck I know. I still like Keith and shut up with it.
I don't give a damn to whoever is reading this post..
I'm saying it here means I don't care who will be reading this, even if its Keith or his girlfriend.
Whatever. I know that what I'm doing now is completely insignificant to him.
Close friends.. Or should I say we're not close friends anymore.. Or rather just normal Hi - chat awhile - Bye Friend..
But what can I do? I'm only acting all these while..
Feeling happy? Yes I do feel happy but not when they're around..
I'm just trying to be happy and not let anybody to start asking me..
Hey are you alright? You look kinda sad, what happen eh..?
What the fuck do you expect me to reply? Jealous because of them?
Keeping silent in the group doesn't means I'm sad or emo.
Its my personality, when I can chat along with all means I already quite close with all.. Like my classmates in secondary school, but still sometimes I will be quiet in the group.. I'm a listener not a talker.. I don't present my emotions to all, I keep it to myself.
I don't know what I'm saying right now..
I just hate it to see them like that.. I have to turn away to save myself from looking at them.. Or just look elsewhere..
I don't even have the eyes to look at them when they talk to me..
Its to save myself from all the jealousy..
Forget it.

What I wanna say is to Keith and Leo even though he don't know my blog url.
Good luck to you two tomorrow, what I wanna say is. Repent from the mistakes you'd made. Going into the prison or RTC or whatever it is gonna be.
When you're out, remember your friends and don't forget about them..
When you're finding job, don't be negative about it.. Look forth to find a job.. If not start a business of your own..
Like what the Adam Khoo workshop said to us before which I find it rather abit useless but true.. The past does not equal to the future..
Blah.. Whatever it is.. Good luck. Stay happy.
Tonight will be the night that I will fall for you over again.