Continuation of the previous post :D
Taken in the toilet 2
Ki SiaoS..
Again being mad..
After buying slippers -.-
Madness
Wonder when will they ever get sicked of taking photos.. =.=
Madnesssssssssssss !
By golly, they sure do love photo taking..
Gah.. I got nothing since I wasn't taking any photos with them, they took a picture of me.. Just nice I was thinking of some piggy.. =/
Lamers... -_-
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I WOULD GLADLY RECOMMEND THESE FEW
TO ADVERTISE YOUR PRODUCTS, BUT BEWARE IF NOBODY BUYS THEM..
NOT MY PROBLEM BY THEN.. LMAO !
I'm drinking my mocha for hell sake =.=
Stopppppppppp taking pictures of me.. T_T
I'm not looking at the camera.......
BUNCH OF CRAZY PEOPLE MADLY IN LOVE WITH PHOTO TAKING.. ITS SUPPOSE TO BE CANDID AND THEY STILL CAN POSE FOR ME.. GAWD...
Woopies.. Shoes unite! I mean slippers and shoes unite!
WOOOOO
Okay well theres actually a whole lot more.. Some at XinLei's there I think so..
I'm tired of posting so many pictures also..
Its boring to wait for the pictures to upload..
If worst case still give me error then I have to re upload them again..
Its a bloody damn nuisance..
Gawwwwwddddddd !
Well actually I don't feel good today..
Woke up in the morning stomach pain.. Then afternoon head starts to feel damn heavy..
I hate holidays for I can't sleep regularly..
But holidays are love for fun and games..
Of course going out with the one you love most :D
But school seriously sucks..
I feel like quitting school.. Given such a sucky module.. Its just plain stupid please..
Sports and Wellness module.. If I have known that the gym stuffs need alot of participation I wouldn't go for it.. It simply really damn sucks.. A whole lot of work out you MUST do if not you're gonna FAIL your bloody module and be ready to get RE-MODULE FOR IT the next semester..
I now starts towonder why the hell did I choose to go to NP...
I feel that its blooody damn no life.. All the enthusiasm it seems bloody damn fake..
Its damn no life.. Bloody timetable is enough to kill you.. Everyday 4 to 5 pm then you end school.. Reach home you're already tired and still there are assignments for you to finish up if not you'll fail your bloody damn module and you have to re module again..
WHATS WITH THIS TYPE OF LIFE DAMN IT..
ITS REALLY DAMN NO LIFE !
ARGH !
I HATEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE THIS MODULE !
STUPID SW MODULE ! CRAP LIKE HELL PLEASE. BLOOOOOODY SCHOOL. -.-
ARGHHHHHHH
- I miss the time we had on thursday, how I wish that time would never flow on when I was with you. -
Tonight will be the night that I will fall for you over again.
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Secondhand Serenade
Fall For You
The best thing about tonight's that we're not fighting
Could it be that we have been this way before
I know you don't think that I am trying
I know you're wearing thin down to the core
But hold your breath
Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I wont live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
You're impossible to find
This is not what I intended
I always swore to you I'd never fall apart
You always thought that I was stronger
I may have failed
But I have loved you from the start
Oh
But hold your breath
Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I wont live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
It's impossible
So breathe in so deep
Breathe me in
I'm yours to keep
And hold onto your words
Cause talk is cheap
And remember me tonight
When your asleep
Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I wont live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
Tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I wont live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
You're impossible to find
ž i v o t o p i s .
M E M O I R S .
` xinyi, debbie
` seventeen
` fourteen april
` night lover
` slacker
` ngeeann poly kid
` ex - zss kid
` single, but still missing him.
Extras'
Section
I'm currently ain't attached.
But still ain't looking for one.
Neither do I wanna be having one soon.
But my temper I would be wishing it to simmer down instead of being back to old self.
Anyways, Life isn't that great.
Life is just life.
Sadness.
Emo-ness.
Darkness.
Whatever.
Just please don't piss me off if you know me.
Well even if you don't please kindly fuck off from my sight.
W I S H L I S T
M Y W A N T S !
† Slippers
† Earrings / Studs
† More bottoms
† Wrist accessories
†
† Zinc sling bag
† Wallet
† High cut shoes
† Pencil case
† Striped clothes
† Personalized belt
† Black jacket
† Striped cardigan
† Happy life
† Smart
† Money to buy items that I wish for
† Time to let me sleep and dream xD
† Holidays !
C H A T R O O M
Talk all you like :D but no spam of course .
Update 2 !
9:24 PM - Sunday, June 22, 2008
UPDATEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
5:20 PM
Yes its an update for sure..
Not the previous just to entertain SOME people :X
LOL
This will be an update on the monday that we 4E4'07 girls went out :D
I CONFIRM SHOOT YOU PEOPLE HAHAHAHA. !
Okay time for the granddddddddddddddd update :D
Seems like I'm saying my post is damn good and damn grand :x
BUT TO ME IT IS. WHAHA.
It was on a 16th June 2008, Monday
Went out to meet up with Angie first.. -.-
Since she stay soooooooooooooooooooo damn near to me.. Which is one block away from me.. Then sometimes open window she can SEE THROUGH MY ROOM ! LOL. What a robot :x
Then we went to XinLei's house nearby bus stop.. Guess what we're the firts to arrive!
FIRST TIME I NEVER LATE WHAHAHA. BE GLAD ! THIS IS A SUPER TIME THAT I WILL NOT LATE FOR SOMETHING. LMAO !
Then came XinLei and PeiYi, woots. Then we took the bus to meet ShunZhen and XiuJin.. Guess what.. When we arrive at their bus stop there they are on the way to the bus stop only.. Confirm guarantee plus chop don't need think also sure know miss the bus -.-.. Then XinLei told them to meet us at Cineleisure there..
AHAH. SAY WANNA GO SAKAE SUSHI TO EAT. THEN IN THE END FIND SO MANY PLACES NO SAKAE THEN GO TO THE DON'T KNOW WHAT KONBAYASU JAPANESE FAST FOOD RESTAURANT TO EATTTTTT...
Booya, anyway the food was quite okay.. Not that bad.. But still I prefer other japanese restaurants :X FRIED TOFU FTW
Not the previous just to entertain SOME people :X
LOL
This will be an update on the monday that we 4E4'07 girls went out :D
I CONFIRM SHOOT YOU PEOPLE HAHAHAHA. !
Okay time for the granddddddddddddddd update :D
Seems like I'm saying my post is damn good and damn grand :x
BUT TO ME IT IS. WHAHA.
It was on a 16th June 2008, Monday
Went out to meet up with Angie first.. -.-
Since she stay soooooooooooooooooooo damn near to me.. Which is one block away from me.. Then sometimes open window she can SEE THROUGH MY ROOM ! LOL. What a robot :x
Then we went to XinLei's house nearby bus stop.. Guess what we're the firts to arrive!
FIRST TIME I NEVER LATE WHAHAHA. BE GLAD ! THIS IS A SUPER TIME THAT I WILL NOT LATE FOR SOMETHING. LMAO !
Then came XinLei and PeiYi, woots. Then we took the bus to meet ShunZhen and XiuJin.. Guess what.. When we arrive at their bus stop there they are on the way to the bus stop only.. Confirm guarantee plus chop don't need think also sure know miss the bus -.-.. Then XinLei told them to meet us at Cineleisure there..
AHAH. SAY WANNA GO SAKAE SUSHI TO EAT. THEN IN THE END FIND SO MANY PLACES NO SAKAE THEN GO TO THE DON'T KNOW WHAT KONBAYASU JAPANESE FAST FOOD RESTAURANT TO EATTTTTT...
Booya, anyway the food was quite okay.. Not that bad.. But still I prefer other japanese restaurants :X FRIED TOFU FTW
ShunZhen and XinLei.. 2 Lamers :x
ShunZhen, Me, XinLei, Peiyi and Angie. I'm forced -.-
SEE THIS 2 KI SIAO HAHAHA
DAMN ZI LIAN PLS THIS 2 LOL. I'M BEING FORCED ! LOOK AT MY FACE HAHA
ANOTHER ONE KENA FORCED.. SOME MORE SHUNZHEN ALMOST STRANGLE ME!
SEE.. Taking pictures again.. Gahh..
Another =.=
WHAHA.. WE TOOK IT IN THE TOILET.. PURPOSELY AT THE BACK :D
Okay more on the next post.. Bloody blogger don't let me upload the rest.. Sheesh..
- Loving my piggy oh so sweetly ~ Love you baka :D -
Tonight will be the night that I will fall for you over again.
I got something to post for now. LOL
7:50 PM - Sunday, June 15, 2008
Tagged by xinlei.. -.-!
Rules & Regulations of this quiz is ...
a) people who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs & replace any questions that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves.
b) tag 6 people to do this quiz & thos who are tagged cannot refuse.These people must state who they were tagged by & cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by. Continue this game by sending it to other people.
Q : If your lover betrayed you, what would be your reaction?
A : Emo for few days then think of ways to get back at him. LMAO.
Q : If you had 3 wishes, what will that be?
A : - Be smart and get rich. :D
- Be with him always?
- Bwahaha, my bf says I'm fat so I needa be slim. LOL.
Q : Did you ever think to yourself and wonder if you're really real?
A : Woo, yes I suppose.. Everything sometimes just seems so uber fake.. =/ or maybe too real..
Q : Are you afraid of what lies ahead of you?
A : I won't say I'm not, so yeah of course. But still gotta live on eh? Even though the next minute can be the end of your life. Lol.
Q : Would you change yourself for the person you love?
A : I'm constantly being nagged at, so its a uber yes for him if he were to see this question.. yeah baby? Rofl :x
Q : Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
A : Both~ Don't be selfish for this =/ LOVE AND BE LOVED BY HIM!
Q : How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?
A : Wait for the someone on what? This question doesn't seems to be giving me direct question o.o...
Q : If the person you secretly liked is already attached, what would you do?
A : Emo for few days and get on with my life. He ain't needed in my life terribly unlike this baka of mine :X
Q : Are you happy or sad, list them out.
A : I'm happy of courseeeeee~
- Being in loved with a noob call Motoyasu Nishiyama *lol*
- Happy with my class, bunch of jokers.
- Happy with my ex class, gonna go out with them SOON :D
- HAPPY BECAUSE TUESDAY I'M GOING OUT WITH MY BF HAH. [ He is in the east and I'm in the west ._. ]
- I'M HAPPY WITH MY LIFE LA LOL.
Q : Do you get butterflies in your stomach whenever you're around the guy/girl you like?
A : Nope, that guy is super straightforward lol. !
Q : Have you ever not been able to get someone out of your head?
A : Oh sure do ~ Like right now I'm missing my baby :D
Q : Who are currently most important people to you?
A : Everyone in this world that I know, those I don't know I wouldn't care much =x
Q : Have you ever wanted someone but you knew you couldn't?
A : Yeah, but thats in the past of course..
Q : What's the ideal perfect relationship to you?
A : Perfect? Nah.. Too perfect = problematic. It exist in my wah wah land. Lol
Q : Are you happy with your life?
A : Sure do :D
Q : Would you give all in a relationship?
A : Give all in? Whats the all refers to? If love of course it will be yes ~
Q : If you fall in love with 2 persons simultaneously, who would you pick? the lousiest one? OR the better one?
A : NEITHER ONE! GET ANOTHER BETTER THAN THE BOTH OF THEM LOL!!
Q : What type of friends do you like?
A : Any friends will do, but the best is able to communicate with them well :D
Q : Do you often wish there was something you could change?
A : OF COURSE DUH! THIS IS SUCH A STRAIGHT YES ANSWER MAN!
Q : What do you notice when you first meet a guy?
A : PERSONALITY~ Oh first met.. Hmmm.. LOOKS LOL. =X
6 people I tagged :
- MOTE DE JIE [ BABYDUGONG ]
- XIAOTING :D
- XIANG
- ANGIEEEEE even though ure tagged by xinlei :X
- SHUN ZHENNN SAME THING LA LOL.
- AND ONE MORE I DON'T KNOW LA.. ANYONE LOL!
- NUB BABY I LOVE YOU LOADS =D . YOU'RE MY PIGGY ALWAYS LMAO . -
Tonight will be the night that I will fall for you over again.
Rules & Regulations of this quiz is ...
a) people who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs & replace any questions that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves.
b) tag 6 people to do this quiz & thos who are tagged cannot refuse.These people must state who they were tagged by & cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by. Continue this game by sending it to other people.
Q : If your lover betrayed you, what would be your reaction?
A : Emo for few days then think of ways to get back at him. LMAO.
Q : If you had 3 wishes, what will that be?
A : - Be smart and get rich. :D
- Be with him always?
- Bwahaha, my bf says I'm fat so I needa be slim. LOL.
Q : Did you ever think to yourself and wonder if you're really real?
A : Woo, yes I suppose.. Everything sometimes just seems so uber fake.. =/ or maybe too real..
Q : Are you afraid of what lies ahead of you?
A : I won't say I'm not, so yeah of course. But still gotta live on eh? Even though the next minute can be the end of your life. Lol.
Q : Would you change yourself for the person you love?
A : I'm constantly being nagged at, so its a uber yes for him if he were to see this question.. yeah baby? Rofl :x
Q : Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
A : Both~ Don't be selfish for this =/ LOVE AND BE LOVED BY HIM!
Q : How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?
A : Wait for the someone on what? This question doesn't seems to be giving me direct question o.o...
Q : If the person you secretly liked is already attached, what would you do?
A : Emo for few days and get on with my life. He ain't needed in my life terribly unlike this baka of mine :X
Q : Are you happy or sad, list them out.
A : I'm happy of courseeeeee~
- Being in loved with a noob call Motoyasu Nishiyama *lol*
- Happy with my class, bunch of jokers.
- Happy with my ex class, gonna go out with them SOON :D
- HAPPY BECAUSE TUESDAY I'M GOING OUT WITH MY BF HAH. [ He is in the east and I'm in the west ._. ]
- I'M HAPPY WITH MY LIFE LA LOL.
Q : Do you get butterflies in your stomach whenever you're around the guy/girl you like?
A : Nope, that guy is super straightforward lol. !
Q : Have you ever not been able to get someone out of your head?
A : Oh sure do ~ Like right now I'm missing my baby :D
Q : Who are currently most important people to you?
A : Everyone in this world that I know, those I don't know I wouldn't care much =x
Q : Have you ever wanted someone but you knew you couldn't?
A : Yeah, but thats in the past of course..
Q : What's the ideal perfect relationship to you?
A : Perfect? Nah.. Too perfect = problematic. It exist in my wah wah land. Lol
Q : Are you happy with your life?
A : Sure do :D
Q : Would you give all in a relationship?
A : Give all in? Whats the all refers to? If love of course it will be yes ~
Q : If you fall in love with 2 persons simultaneously, who would you pick? the lousiest one? OR the better one?
A : NEITHER ONE! GET ANOTHER BETTER THAN THE BOTH OF THEM LOL!!
Q : What type of friends do you like?
A : Any friends will do, but the best is able to communicate with them well :D
Q : Do you often wish there was something you could change?
A : OF COURSE DUH! THIS IS SUCH A STRAIGHT YES ANSWER MAN!
Q : What do you notice when you first meet a guy?
A : PERSONALITY~ Oh first met.. Hmmm.. LOOKS LOL. =X
6 people I tagged :
- MOTE DE JIE [ BABYDUGONG ]
- XIAOTING :D
- XIANG
- ANGIEEEEE even though ure tagged by xinlei :X
- SHUN ZHENNN SAME THING LA LOL.
- AND ONE MORE I DON'T KNOW LA.. ANYONE LOL!
- NUB BABY I LOVE YOU LOADS =D . YOU'RE MY PIGGY ALWAYS LMAO . -
Tonight will be the night that I will fall for you over again.
UPDATE!
11:21 PM - Friday, June 13, 2008
YES !
I'M GONNA UPDATE !
HAHA
YES ITS AN UPDATE ALRIGHT..
SURE ITS GONNA BE...
HMMMM....
LEMME THINK
OF
WHAT
TO
BLOG
FOR
TODAY
IF
NOT
GOT
PEOPLE
GONNA
COMPLAIN
THAT
I
NEVER
UPDATE
MY
BLOG
AND
ITS
GONNA
BE
DEAD.
AHHHHH!
RARRRRR
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UPDATE!
OKAYS.
THATS
IT
ACTUALLY
I
GOT
NOTHING
TO
UPDATE
SO
I'M
ACTUALLY
TYPING
CRAP
TO
LET
YOU
PEOPLE
SEE
FOR
FUN
AND
I
KNOW
SURE
GOT
PEOPLE
WANNA
KILL
ME
FOR
THIS
POST
LMAO
!
LOL!
- THATS ALL FOLKS. LMAO ! -
Tonight will be the night that I will fall for you over again.
I'M GONNA UPDATE !
HAHA
YES ITS AN UPDATE ALRIGHT..
SURE ITS GONNA BE...
HMMMM....
LEMME THINK
OF
WHAT
TO
BLOG
FOR
TODAY
IF
NOT
GOT
PEOPLE
GONNA
COMPLAIN
THAT
I
NEVER
UPDATE
MY
BLOG
AND
ITS
GONNA
BE
DEAD.
AHHHHH!
RARRRRR
UPDATE
UPDATE
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OKAYS.
THATS
IT
ACTUALLY
I
GOT
NOTHING
TO
UPDATE
SO
I'M
ACTUALLY
TYPING
CRAP
TO
LET
YOU
PEOPLE
SEE
FOR
FUN
AND
I
KNOW
SURE
GOT
PEOPLE
WANNA
KILL
ME
FOR
THIS
POST
LMAO
!
LOL!
- THATS ALL FOLKS. LMAO ! -
Tonight will be the night that I will fall for you over again.
Tests over!
4:48 PM - Wednesday, June 4, 2008
YES THE DAMN TESTS ARE OVER!
I think if I'm gonna flunk my tests.. The first will be engineering mechanics..
I CAN'T REALLY DETERMINE THE DIRECTION WHETHER IS POSITIVE OR NOT..
Oh my bloody damn it..
The test that I maybe could score better would be my Engineering Maths 1..
Then second is ELTECH..
Then last Engineering Machanics..
Oh god..
Well, tests over..
But school still don't wanna let us off..
Still give us things to do during Thursday and Friday..
What heck man..
E - Learning.. BORING. -.-!!
- Netherless you're mine always. -
Tonight will be the night that I will fall for you over again.
I think if I'm gonna flunk my tests.. The first will be engineering mechanics..
I CAN'T REALLY DETERMINE THE DIRECTION WHETHER IS POSITIVE OR NOT..
Oh my bloody damn it..
The test that I maybe could score better would be my Engineering Maths 1..
Then second is ELTECH..
Then last Engineering Machanics..
Oh god..
Well, tests over..
But school still don't wanna let us off..
Still give us things to do during Thursday and Friday..
What heck man..
E - Learning.. BORING. -.-!!
- Netherless you're mine always. -
Tonight will be the night that I will fall for you over again.
Wishing..
10:34 PM - Tuesday, June 3, 2008
I just wish I could seriously end my life right now.
But what?
I've got no guts to do it.
I'm a dumb ass who thinks of my own only.
I'm such a idiot to COMPARE..
I'm such a bloody tard to think of things which will neer happen in reality.
A completely dumb and idiotic person is me.
Where can you find this type of person?
Find me.
Wanna find a better person? Sorry, I'm not the one. I'm just a loser who does things that pisses people off and makes everyone upset.
My life is completely a shit.
Seriously, I don't even know whats my existence for..
Just a completely waste of Earth's oxygen..
Problems..
Problems.. Why is there such a thing call problem..
If it isn't problems.. Won't everybody be at peace?
I just realise..
I'm not a person who can think..
I don't think on whats going on..
Whats happening.. I don't on reality stuffs.. You give me questions on life, I will think about it but the answer is still the same.. I don't know..
If you give me a question on subjects, like maths.. I can jolly well solve it for you.. If you're gonna tell me its almost the same well its not..
Questions doing with reality it will have many answers to it..
Questions on subjects are standard answers..
But no matter what am I gonna say..
I just feel that I'm completely such an idiot in doing things..
Never once did I do the correct stuffs..
Never fail to be at wrong..
Never fail to make people upset in their life..
Never fail to make myself miserable after knowing so many things..
Never once will I be able to do something correct..
Always at the wrong..
Always making people upset..
Sometimes I just wish that the next second
I'm gone for good..
Nobody will notice I'm gone..
Even if there is.. Probably be at there celebrating : Oh yeah She's gone for good. Thank god for the disappearance of hers..
W o w .
Simply say. I'm a person who thinks negatively.
I can think positively for others, but to myself sorry I can't I will keep on thinking on the negative side for no reason..
Even if its happy it can also be bad.
While I'm happy, I'm happy.
When I'm fine, nothing wrong is going on with me..
When I'm quiet, it doesn't mean that I'm feeling emotional or what.. I could be suddenly doesn't have anything to say, maybe feeling tired and don't wanna talk about anything, or even I just wanna be quiet for the time being.. It really doesn't mean anything much when I'm quiet.. I just wanna be quiet for that period of time.. Can't I be just quiet? I will speak when I want to, I know many people will think that I'm bloody damn emotional when I'm quiet..
FOR BLOODY HELL SAKE, I'M NOT. UNLESS I'M REALLY UPSET ABOUT SOMETHING, BUT NORMALLY I'M NOT. I'M JUST COMPLETELY FINE. WHEN I SAID I'M FINE MEANS I'M FINE.
YES THERE ARE PEOPLE WHO SAYS THAT WHEN A FEMALES SHE'S FINE BUT ACTUALLY THEY'RE NOT. BUT HELLO. THIS APPLIES TO THE SITUATION FIRST THEN DECIDE WHETHER SHE'S FINE OR NOT.
RIGHT NOW, I'M COMPLETELY AIN'T FINE BECAUSE OF THIS EMOTIONAL PROBLEM.
I WILL BE PISSED OFF IF SOMEONE JUST CLAIMS TO UNDERSTAND ME ALOT, BUT HELL NO.
I DON'T EVEN UNDERSTAND MYSELF AND WHAT MAKES YOU THINK SO THAT YOU'LL UNDERSTAND ME THAT MUCH?
Have you ever wondered why that I'm quiet at times..
I'll say its because.. Maybe I won't say totally it is..
From young, I've been alone.
Yes, alone. So what I have a brother, but my brother doesn't even play with me or talk with me.. Playing with myself from time to time..
Gradually I'm adapt to this lonely life.
What I say maybe irrelevant.. But I just wanna say out that why am I quiet..
It was from here that I became like this..
I just want you to be here, I don't need you to understand me.. I just wanna be happy with you thats all I want.
If this ain't going on well.. I just wish I could end my life soon..
I just want back the past.
Tonight will be the night that I will fall for you over again.
But what?
I've got no guts to do it.
I'm a dumb ass who thinks of my own only.
I'm such a idiot to COMPARE..
I'm such a bloody tard to think of things which will neer happen in reality.
A completely dumb and idiotic person is me.
Where can you find this type of person?
Find me.
Wanna find a better person? Sorry, I'm not the one. I'm just a loser who does things that pisses people off and makes everyone upset.
My life is completely a shit.
Seriously, I don't even know whats my existence for..
Just a completely waste of Earth's oxygen..
Problems..
Problems.. Why is there such a thing call problem..
If it isn't problems.. Won't everybody be at peace?
I just realise..
I'm not a person who can think..
I don't think on whats going on..
Whats happening.. I don't on reality stuffs.. You give me questions on life, I will think about it but the answer is still the same.. I don't know..
If you give me a question on subjects, like maths.. I can jolly well solve it for you.. If you're gonna tell me its almost the same well its not..
Questions doing with reality it will have many answers to it..
Questions on subjects are standard answers..
But no matter what am I gonna say..
I just feel that I'm completely such an idiot in doing things..
Never once did I do the correct stuffs..
Never fail to be at wrong..
Never fail to make people upset in their life..
Never fail to make myself miserable after knowing so many things..
Never once will I be able to do something correct..
Always at the wrong..
Always making people upset..
Sometimes I just wish that the next second
I'm gone for good..
Nobody will notice I'm gone..
Even if there is.. Probably be at there celebrating : Oh yeah She's gone for good. Thank god for the disappearance of hers..
W o w .
Simply say. I'm a person who thinks negatively.
I can think positively for others, but to myself sorry I can't I will keep on thinking on the negative side for no reason..
Even if its happy it can also be bad.
While I'm happy, I'm happy.
When I'm fine, nothing wrong is going on with me..
When I'm quiet, it doesn't mean that I'm feeling emotional or what.. I could be suddenly doesn't have anything to say, maybe feeling tired and don't wanna talk about anything, or even I just wanna be quiet for the time being.. It really doesn't mean anything much when I'm quiet.. I just wanna be quiet for that period of time.. Can't I be just quiet? I will speak when I want to, I know many people will think that I'm bloody damn emotional when I'm quiet..
FOR BLOODY HELL SAKE, I'M NOT. UNLESS I'M REALLY UPSET ABOUT SOMETHING, BUT NORMALLY I'M NOT. I'M JUST COMPLETELY FINE. WHEN I SAID I'M FINE MEANS I'M FINE.
YES THERE ARE PEOPLE WHO SAYS THAT WHEN A FEMALES SHE'S FINE BUT ACTUALLY THEY'RE NOT. BUT HELLO. THIS APPLIES TO THE SITUATION FIRST THEN DECIDE WHETHER SHE'S FINE OR NOT.
RIGHT NOW, I'M COMPLETELY AIN'T FINE BECAUSE OF THIS EMOTIONAL PROBLEM.
I WILL BE PISSED OFF IF SOMEONE JUST CLAIMS TO UNDERSTAND ME ALOT, BUT HELL NO.
I DON'T EVEN UNDERSTAND MYSELF AND WHAT MAKES YOU THINK SO THAT YOU'LL UNDERSTAND ME THAT MUCH?
Have you ever wondered why that I'm quiet at times..
I'll say its because.. Maybe I won't say totally it is..
From young, I've been alone.
Yes, alone. So what I have a brother, but my brother doesn't even play with me or talk with me.. Playing with myself from time to time..
Gradually I'm adapt to this lonely life.
What I say maybe irrelevant.. But I just wanna say out that why am I quiet..
It was from here that I became like this..
I just want you to be here, I don't need you to understand me.. I just wanna be happy with you thats all I want.
If this ain't going on well.. I just wish I could end my life soon..
I just want back the past.
Tonight will be the night that I will fall for you over again.
Wassup?
10:34 PM - Monday, June 2, 2008
What's up..
I don't know what am I thinking these days..
I got into a quarrel with dear..
Now I'm feeling so eff-ing lost..
Why do I need to so eff-ing emotional these days..
Why did I let him to be so worried for me.. Why did I even exist..
Seriously, I feel so troubled after talking to him nicely..
It became worst..
What am I suppose to do? Hello.. I'm the one at fault.. I know what I did.. But please.. I hate this.. I just wanna break down and cry..
I'm crying inside. Let me cry out.. I seriously miss you boy.
I don't know what the heck am I thinking right now. I'm suppose to be studying and revising for my test tomorrow.. But I don't have the least mood to do it.. I think I'm gonna flunk my test at this rate.... Zz...
I just wanna be with him happily.. I miss him..
I love him too deeply.. This is the first time I've fallen so deeply in love with a guy.. I don't wanna lose anything..
Oh fuck this.. I seriously hate this.. Dilemma..
Just kill me, end my misery. Or turn back time I don't wish to exist in this world..
I hate this situation..
Mote, I miss you terribly.
I know what I said breaks your heart.
I know where I'm wrong.
Zzz.. I don't know just what to carry on saying..
I HATE THIS.
I WANNA BE LIKE BEFORE.
CHATTING HAPPILY.
Tonight will be the night that I will fall for you over again.
I don't know what am I thinking these days..
I got into a quarrel with dear..
Now I'm feeling so eff-ing lost..
Why do I need to so eff-ing emotional these days..
Why did I let him to be so worried for me.. Why did I even exist..
Seriously, I feel so troubled after talking to him nicely..
It became worst..
What am I suppose to do? Hello.. I'm the one at fault.. I know what I did.. But please.. I hate this.. I just wanna break down and cry..
I'm crying inside. Let me cry out.. I seriously miss you boy.
I don't know what the heck am I thinking right now. I'm suppose to be studying and revising for my test tomorrow.. But I don't have the least mood to do it.. I think I'm gonna flunk my test at this rate.... Zz...
I just wanna be with him happily.. I miss him..
I love him too deeply.. This is the first time I've fallen so deeply in love with a guy.. I don't wanna lose anything..
Oh fuck this.. I seriously hate this.. Dilemma..
Just kill me, end my misery. Or turn back time I don't wish to exist in this world..
I hate this situation..
Mote, I miss you terribly.
I know what I said breaks your heart.
I know where I'm wrong.
Zzz.. I don't know just what to carry on saying..
I HATE THIS.
I WANNA BE LIKE BEFORE.
CHATTING HAPPILY.
Tonight will be the night that I will fall for you over again.
31st May's post
7:55 PM - Sunday, June 1, 2008
Yeah, I'm gonna blog about yesterday..
Yesterday went out with Dear, Val, Keith, XiaoTing, Lun [ he later on then joined us ]
Dear came to my house LRT there to find me then we together go to Orchard to find Val, since Imma direction idiot, and dear haven't has gone to orchard for damn long..
So we met her first there. Then we walked to Paragon, it was raining please.. My god, then Val bought an umbrella I was forced to be in the middle -.-!
Then I'm dry, dear was left side wet, Val was right side wet.. -_- But my shoes wasn't being let off either =/ My shoes got wet by a little but after that it was okay..
Ahah! We went to Paragon to eat at Sushitei.. Val's favourite place.. -.-
But my favourite from Sushitei's is the Ice Balls and the Coffee Balls.. So cute so nice to eat also.. God, they treat me like kid T_T.. But anyway heck, I love it :x
But it doesn't mean I will wanna keep on eating it.. From time to time once in awhile its okay for me to eat like that.. But not always, its expensive damn it x_x..
Anyway after eating we went back to PS to let Val charge her handphone and put her heavy bag in shop..
Till then we waited for Lun to came by then we took a train back to town area to walked then after that we went to eat dinner at Cineleisure.. Didn't eat anything during dinner, not hungry =/.. Mote also never eat.. Haiz..
Then we continued to walk.. Slack.. Then finally slacking at PS's Kopitiam..
Around 9+ Mote and I left there, cause he gotta send me back home.. Then he need to catch the last train too..
Though I'm happy that he send me back home, but it seems to be tiring for him..
Oh well.. He wants it, and he doesn't feel tired but happy about it I can't stop him. I love him for he is and respects what he wants..
Ah. I forget what to carry on already.. Forget most of the things already..
STM these days.. =/
- I love you boy. -
Tonight will be the night that I will fall for you over again.
Yesterday went out with Dear, Val, Keith, XiaoTing, Lun [ he later on then joined us ]
Dear came to my house LRT there to find me then we together go to Orchard to find Val, since Imma direction idiot, and dear haven't has gone to orchard for damn long..
So we met her first there. Then we walked to Paragon, it was raining please.. My god, then Val bought an umbrella I was forced to be in the middle -.-!
Then I'm dry, dear was left side wet, Val was right side wet.. -_- But my shoes wasn't being let off either =/ My shoes got wet by a little but after that it was okay..
Ahah! We went to Paragon to eat at Sushitei.. Val's favourite place.. -.-
But my favourite from Sushitei's is the Ice Balls and the Coffee Balls.. So cute so nice to eat also.. God, they treat me like kid T_T.. But anyway heck, I love it :x
But it doesn't mean I will wanna keep on eating it.. From time to time once in awhile its okay for me to eat like that.. But not always, its expensive damn it x_x..
Anyway after eating we went back to PS to let Val charge her handphone and put her heavy bag in shop..
Till then we waited for Lun to came by then we took a train back to town area to walked then after that we went to eat dinner at Cineleisure.. Didn't eat anything during dinner, not hungry =/.. Mote also never eat.. Haiz..
Then we continued to walk.. Slack.. Then finally slacking at PS's Kopitiam..
Around 9+ Mote and I left there, cause he gotta send me back home.. Then he need to catch the last train too..
Though I'm happy that he send me back home, but it seems to be tiring for him..
Oh well.. He wants it, and he doesn't feel tired but happy about it I can't stop him. I love him for he is and respects what he wants..
Ah. I forget what to carry on already.. Forget most of the things already..
STM these days.. =/
- I love you boy. -
Tonight will be the night that I will fall for you over again.
F O R G A N G E N .
The memories of mine..
† December 2007
† January 2008
† February 2008
† March 2008
† April 2008
† May 2008
† June 2008
† July 2008
† August 2008
† September 2008
† October 2008
† November 2008
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