I just wish I could seriously end my life right now.
But what?
I've got no guts to do it.
I'm a dumb ass who thinks of my own only.
I'm such a idiot to COMPARE..
I'm such a bloody tard to think of things which will neer happen in reality.
A completely dumb and idiotic person is me.
Where can you find this type of person?
Find me.
Wanna find a better person? Sorry, I'm not the one. I'm just a loser who does things that pisses people off and makes everyone upset.
My life is completely a shit.
Seriously, I don't even know whats my existence for..
Just a completely waste of Earth's oxygen..

Problems..
Problems.. Why is there such a thing call problem..
If it isn't problems.. Won't everybody be at peace?
I just realise..
I'm not a person who can think..
I don't think on whats going on..
Whats happening.. I don't on reality stuffs.. You give me questions on life, I will think about it but the answer is still the same.. I don't know..
If you give me a question on subjects, like maths.. I can jolly well solve it for you.. If you're gonna tell me its almost the same well its not..
Questions doing with reality it will have many answers to it..
Questions on subjects are standard answers..


But no matter what am I gonna say..
I just feel that I'm completely such an idiot in doing things..
Never once did I do the correct stuffs..
Never fail to be at wrong..
Never fail to make people upset in their life..
Never fail to make myself miserable after knowing so many things..
Never once will I be able to do something correct..
Always at the wrong..
Always making people upset..
Sometimes I just wish that the next second
I'm gone for good..
Nobody will notice I'm gone..
Even if there is.. Probably be at there celebrating : Oh yeah She's gone for good. Thank god for the disappearance of hers..

W o w .
Simply say. I'm a person who thinks negatively.
I can think positively for others, but to myself sorry I can't I will keep on thinking on the negative side for no reason..
Even if its happy it can also be bad.
While I'm happy, I'm happy.
When I'm fine, nothing wrong is going on with me..
When I'm quiet, it doesn't mean that I'm feeling emotional or what.. I could be suddenly doesn't have anything to say, maybe feeling tired and don't wanna talk about anything, or even I just wanna be quiet for the time being.. It really doesn't mean anything much when I'm quiet.. I just wanna be quiet for that period of time.. Can't I be just quiet? I will speak when I want to, I know many people will think that I'm bloody damn emotional when I'm quiet..
FOR BLOODY HELL SAKE, I'M NOT. UNLESS I'M REALLY UPSET ABOUT SOMETHING, BUT NORMALLY I'M NOT. I'M JUST COMPLETELY FINE. WHEN I SAID I'M FINE MEANS I'M FINE.
YES THERE ARE PEOPLE WHO SAYS THAT WHEN A FEMALES SHE'S FINE BUT ACTUALLY THEY'RE NOT. BUT HELLO. THIS APPLIES TO THE SITUATION FIRST THEN DECIDE WHETHER SHE'S FINE OR NOT.
RIGHT NOW, I'M COMPLETELY AIN'T FINE BECAUSE OF THIS EMOTIONAL PROBLEM.
I WILL BE PISSED OFF IF SOMEONE JUST CLAIMS TO UNDERSTAND ME ALOT, BUT HELL NO.
I DON'T EVEN UNDERSTAND MYSELF AND WHAT MAKES YOU THINK SO THAT YOU'LL UNDERSTAND ME THAT MUCH?
Have you ever wondered why that I'm quiet at times..
I'll say its because.. Maybe I won't say totally it is..
From young, I've been alone.
Yes, alone. So what I have a brother, but my brother doesn't even play with me or talk with me.. Playing with myself from time to time..
Gradually I'm adapt to this lonely life.
What I say maybe irrelevant.. But I just wanna say out that why am I quiet..
It was from here that I became like this..
I just want you to be here, I don't need you to understand me.. I just wanna be happy with you thats all I want.

If this ain't going on well.. I just wish I could end my life soon..
I just want back the past.
Tonight will be the night that I will fall for you over again.