This is really driving me insane.. Seriously. I'm so bloody goddamned pissed and fustrated.. Even feel like punching someone.. I don't really know why the hell am I that fustrated.. I'm trying to find some skin.. Nothing is nice.. Worst of all is that its becoming more and more unsightly.. Those nice skins are damn nice but doesn't suit me.. While those that can suit me, just simply makes me wanna trash the living hell out of somebody.. Irritating that is.. Whats furthermore was that I'm also doing my project, ADDING IN PROOF, EVIDENCE, SOURCES, CITATIONS into the darn edited project by Rauf. Seriously I need to use the word fuck here. FUCK it, I told him need proof and sources before. But he uses eveything in own words, I'm fine with it. Later on we discover that the FUCKING MEL wrote that it also need to include our bloody darn opinions and also seriously need proofs in it.. This seriously gets me feel like slamming my laptop and just suicide and be free with from all these shits..



Argh... Chilled out for abit already, was viewing wu zun's photos then make me happy by a little.. Hah. Still, I'm in a dampened mood of emo-ness.. Why am I such a stupid in believing things/people will change for the better and it wasn't real.. In the end, I end up believing once more time to try to make myself happy.. Even though I don't wanna be thinking of these thoughts, seeing the pictures.. Saw the sms that Val just sent me saying that she and Lun will be there for me to talk to.. Though I'm glad that there are still friends around me.. But still its hard to forget about one.. Ahh.. Somebody please just kill the hell out of me.. Sicked and tired of all these.. What is trust.. Trusting someone is seems so easy for me.. But everytime I get hurt by it.. Stop these tortures towards me.. No matter how many times it happen to me, I still will forget about it happen and trust people again making myself hurt once again.. The hopes are always being dashed..



3rd week of school had passed.. I'm still not in the mood of studying.. These days there is a pain the head at the side.. I don't know.. But its just a minor one.. My father is getting on me these days also.. I just hate to go bathe early.. I don't know much of a why, but theres one reason is that after they bathe finish theres a part of the toilet will get alil filthy then i would have the urge to use water to spray it clean of course..

Ahh.. Tomorrow meeting Val, XiaoTing, and Lun up..
Heh.. So long never seen each other..
Well gotta go for now then..

- Thanks for the memories. -
Tonight will be the night that I will fall for you over again.