CHANGE OF BLOG URL.
TO KNOW WHAT'S MY NEW URL PLEASE KINDLY MSN FOR IT.
risky_memories@hotmail.com thats my msn.
I'm shifting.. But without the use of the skin that says I'm shifting.. I don't want you to have my new blog url. I know who you are. The rest I'm totally fine with it. Sorry, but the looks of yours just simply irks me out now. Totally. Hate it that I still miss you, but hate it even more that this blog is totally full of unwanted memories.
Yucks.

New blog url, please MSN me for it. :D


- Thanks a million peeps. -
Tonight will be the night that I will fall for you over again.

I've got no one to vent this shit on, and my buddy friend counsellor is not online, and I just have no choice to fucking vent it at here.
FFS. SHOVE THE FUCKING SURVEY FORMS TO DARYL AND HE SHOVE HALF OF IT TO ME, AND ASKIN YOU WHY THE HELL YOU PRINT IT OUT, YOU JUST SAY SCARE OF THE OLD MAN INCASE WANT HARD COPIES. BLOODY FUCK, ANY DUMB IDIOT ALSO KNOW THAT THERE IS SURVEYMONKEY THAT CAN BE USED. LECTURERS WOULD KNOW THERE IS SURVEYMONEY ON SITE !
Fuck, nevermind. I asked Lynn and the gang to help me do surveys last minute, I feel kinda bad doing it already 'cause its last minute. In the form you never fucking state that you can only tick once or you can tick more than once. Some questions for example what are SOME of the 'barriers' in life which are abstaining you from volunteering as a youth? There are 4 options, seeing that the word SOME, gives you the thinking of you can tick more than one right?
There are also other questions that gives the fucking impression that it can be tick more than once. Fuck, I can't ust have the fucking heart to argue back with anyone without having the mindset that we'll quarrel after that. Yesterday I almost blew my top for helping Cristofer, my classmate, I said I will only help finding INFORMATION for him to take down the damn notes.. He kept on asking me to help him do finish.. Fuck. I'm pissed off. Seriously damn pissed off. 2 days straight I just wish for PEACE, and trying to get the fucking PAST over. Yet I get these SHIETS fucking with me. Can you these pathetic shiets stay away from me if you're trying to mess me up? I'm sicked of being this way, I don't have the fucking courage to voice out my thoughts, what the hell is wrong with me?

ARGHHHHHHHHH, this sem filled with projects is making me seriously pissed and the recent shit I've faced are totally making me going into insanity..
FILTHY CRAP. DAMN CRAP. ARGH.
I'm starting to hate the memories. Disgusted by it.

AHHH.. Bloody pek chek!
Just kill me if there is a serial killer on the move..
Or kidnapped me to somewhere or just turned me to some kind of monster or vampy then bring me far far away from singapore the stress country -.-..
Guess I'm reading too much Quizilla's vampire related stories.. But I like 'em..
Heck.. Bye.


- Fuck you, you sucks. I hate to remember the past, but sad to say I hate to say I hate you too. Fuck that shit. -
Tonight will be the night that I will fall for you over again.

This thought just suddenly dawned on me of having my blog shift.. Well, I mean changing my blog url.. Or getting a new blog.. This blog has about 70 post excluding this post.. But those are the memories that I don't wanna keep holding on.. I seriously just feel like crying when the images appear infront of my eyes.. This is really pissing me off.. Those memories will keep flowing backwards to me whenever my eyes are set upon the images.. Argh.. Tears are always threatening to fall off my cheeks.. I'm seriously annoyed by this.. Keeping it cool during the day are all that I could do to hide those feelings away.. I'm seriously a damn emo person during the night.. Maybe not that damn emo.. But the emotions of mine appears during the night more.. Don't wonder why.. I don't even know why too, probably its because theres nobody in the night to disturb you or talk to you.. Could have be that in the night one would have always reflect during the day.. I just don't know..



Argh.. All these thoughts are just giving a bloody damned misery to ME.

Yesterday I saw the PM at MSN..

>> why change someone .. when u know her the way she is.. this is wad i ask myself ..



To me this is like 'Seriously, are you trying to be kidding me? This is so bloody goddamned mother fucking piece of shit.' The last part was whenever I thought of it, it makes my blood boil for some reason..

I for fucking hell's sake change for you. Tolerate your goddamned attitude. [ Talk about mine? I'm already damn nice when I gave my attitude. ] Did everything trying not to be so darn angry.. Apologize for things that I'm actually not wrong. FUCK. The more I carry on typing is just leaving me in disgust, agony, pain, sadness, disappointment, and damn emo.

Fuck, can you just imagine what the hell am I doing now? Maybe you'd guess it right.. Yeah, I'm crying. Finall cried out again ever since the day that we broke up. Other days are just on the verge of coming out from the eyes.. I'm still trying to control.. What the fuck I did to have this type of shiets to happen on me.? Changing for you and WTF I GET? Nothing. I'm that miserable, pathetic. Hoping to forget all these stuffs, even though its hard to forget everything in such a short possible time. I'm controlling the tears as I'm typing.. Argh.. Its hard to stop those tears once after they fall.. I don't care if you're reading or not.. I hope you don't. Keeping myself busy in the day isn't a matter as there are friends to be with.. Once I'm home, I will occupy myself to do things, watch manga online, going to Quizzilla to read stories or watch movies to occupy myself.. Its possible to block the thinking.. But whenever the images just appears infront of my eyes, I just have the tears welled up in the eyes.. Over the past few days my left eye kept on twitching with the verge of crying.. Though it always made me teary at the left eye, but I force myself to 'take the tear off'. I will then just carry on my things as norm.. I know maybe some of you will MSN me after reading this post.. Or sms.. Or whatever it is.. Thanks for it..

I seriously wished that the 'Meng Po Cha' [ Dream Aunty Tea? Thats what you get for direct translation from me.. ] is real, man.. I seriously need it.. Or just wished that my mind is overly obsessed with books and more books rather than stupid things that kill your braincells and making yourself for being so dumb to be in this situation. I SERIOUSLY HATE THIS SITUATION DAMN IT. MEMORIES ARE IRREPLACEABLE.. SO WHAT ? EVEN IF THEY IRREPLACEABLE, I WANT THEM TO BE FORGOTTEN DAMN IT.. I'M LIVING IN AGONY FOR FUCK SAKE. KEEP THINKING TO MYSELF THAT THERE WILL BE NO GUYS THAT WILL MAKE A GIRL CRY.. BUT WHAT FUCK IS THIS? TEARS ARE STREAMING DOWN THE CHEEKS OF GIRLS THAT ARE HURT BY THE BOYFRIENDS. ALL THESE ARE BULLSHITS. 4 Relationships 4 cryings. Does it goes on? TRUSTING THE ONES THAT I THOUGHT I LOVED SO DEARLY ARE JUST FUCKING BIG MISTAKES. Talk about being vulgarity, I'm being one now.. From all these shiets, I had enough. Yet, here is the only place that I can entirely vent on with my thoughts without giving a damn to what others would actually think about me.. Say I'm being a damn vulgar person? I'm unreasonable? I'm not understanding? So be it. I cared others' opinions, but this I wouldn't care.. I do what I want.. I'm seriously tired from everything, if that is someone who could take my agony away, I will be grateful. Its life ain't it? Full of choices right? I guess I'm being dumb in choosing the one that I'll get hurt.

Sigh, I don't what to carry on posting anymore.. Just feel the tiredness from everything.. Hell.. If there is a tap to tears I will seal the tap permanently to stop the tears from flowing unnecessarily..


- Memories, images, and you are haunting on me.. -
Tonight will be the night that I will fall for you over again.

Ahahaha... Today went out with Val and XiaoTing, even though XT went out with us awhile, but also still fun xD.. We went to park mall basement to eat.. Damn the food isn't that nice.. I ordered mini pot noodle.. The bloody mini hotpot keep wanna eat my hand.. T_T.. The table is not very big but yet the crap pot is just beside my left hand when I'm eating, when I wanna shift the damn thing to aside so that it won't 'eat' me anymore, but the handles became hot and all the handles I couldn't touch.. T_T the pot continue to 'eat' me more.. T___T.. Okay, not 'eat' me.. Its scald me.. I wanna be more lame :x..

Now I understand why during afternoon if you're going to eat at coffeeshops or hawker centres and you coudn't find a damn seat.. It's because that when after eating our meals, normally we will slack awhile then go off already.. Which may be like 10 to 20 mins of crappings? But HELL NO for these bunch of adults.. I mean Lun and his colleagues.. Argh.. Though its entertaining.. But also abit of "don't wanna stay on anymore, can we please bloody hell leave this goddamned place for heaven's sake!?" mood.. So thats why you see even tables with these working adults, and they are not eating but drinking.. They will continue to stay on for maybe half an hour to an hour.. Its a high possibility...


The main reason of they can chat till so many rubbish out of their mouths is.. They just wanna slack. Yeah, I mean everybody sure do wanna slack.. But you got work, then go work.. Moreover when you work you still can talk to them and take chane not do anything but slack alil.. Heck.. Whatever it is.. After leaving they finally go back to work at the roadshow.. They are insurance agents.. Ahh... To me insurance agents kinda look like some scammers.. :x.. Well no offense.. But seriously I don't see anything nice in insurance.. =/ maybe its because of too many people in the past had bought till now not much people wanna buy.. Lol.. Anyway.. After leaving there, we went to Bugis Junction to walk awhile, 'cause XT has to leave soon for her friend's birthday party... So we walked around till she had to leave, then we accompanied her to the MRT, then we left for Bugis Street.. Bugis Street, the street that is ever so annoying and messy and crowded.. Annoying is that the 1st floor is frigging hot.. 2nd floor is damn crowded.. 3rd flood not even 5 shops.. Overall messy.. Hard to find another path, always walk until dead end need walk back.. But still there are many niceeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee clothings.. But money not enough T_T..


Spend almost near hundred but not hundred..
Brought 110 dollars.. 60 dollars was I saved up, 50 was from my parents :DD
Top up 10 dollars for ez link..
Bought chocolates, used 10 dollars, but the chocolates are 6.90 for 4.. Buy 3 get 1 free :D
Ate brunch, used 10 dollars..
Bought a earring and a hand accessories, 25 dollars..
Bought a hoodie 15 dollars...
Went to ate dinner with Val at Hips.. By Billy Bombers, but I don't know whats the actual name is.. I didn't really go notice it.. -.-.. Spent 16 dollars..
Wanted to take a bus back home, but I waited for some time thinking why bus 700 never pass by.. I went to the board and saw last bus 1409.. Then had to take cab back, since I have no sense of direction from where we came from.. T_T.. But it was also 16 dollars..
Now I left 26 dollars.. I know all of them doesn't tele up to 110 dollars.. But rough estimation it is ! :X..

Aight ! Gotta save up for some more money :DD.. Then Wednesday I'm able to go watch movies, with my bunch of good friends in class :DD, and we're watching The Coffin.. ! Wish me luck in surviving the whole horror movie ._." But no dinner though :x wouldn't have enough for sure if I were to save more.. :x..



I'm going to upload some pictures of what we ate and what I bought :D..



Chocolates for the win ! These chocolates are slick ! Damn nice :D
Its call PinkLady Super Fine Chocolates, Milk Chocolate.. Bought at The Cocoa Trees


This is my newly bought hoodie ! Its in navy blue, and the image is skulls :D..
Uhh, don't mind my bed for being so cute eh? And the mess.. :x



Bought my new hand accessories.. I don't really know how you call it.. Bracelet? Don't think so.. Uhmm.. Heck.. Its damn nice :D..


This is the Puff pastry with clam chowder.. But not I drank the soup or eat it..
'Cause I don't really like to eat these types of seafood.. Not that I'm allergic to seafood.. Its just that I don't like to eat them.. Well except soft shell crab, my mother cooks the prawn with egg and flour, and of course fish..



This is the Hip Rooster.. Uhh.. Or Hip Chicken.. Ahh.. I forgot..
But its kinda big, but Val finished it :D..



Well, this is mine.. The Grilled Honey BBQ Chicken.. I didn't expect it to be that pathetically small.. But still filling because of the damn mashed potato.. But still I like the drinks, one big cup of coke ! :DDDDDD. MY FAVE.. ! Woots :D xD...



Last but not least, I almost forgotten that I have an earring.. Heh..
Its quite similar to one that I have.. But this as you can see abit.. Though its blur.. The first one that I have is totally black and the tribal [ Is this how you spell it? ] sign is in silver.. While this tribal sign is smaller and its in a silver box but the sign is painted black.. So it does have a difference.. :D Its.. Not.. The.. Same.. Get it?

Alright.. Time for to go on out of here, I needa bathe.. After a long day.. Today is a fun day ever since that day.. Ahh.. What great times.. Anyway.. By the time Val come back from Japan trip.. I wanna have at least a hundred bucks again.. Its 2 weeks from now till she's back.. But I wouldn't know when we'll meet again.. Until then I wanna save up ! I wanna get clothes, but there are not many to my likings.. T_T.. Till then.. I'm signing off now ~




- The heart's desire to kill.. -
Tonight will be the night that I will fall for you over again.